SLEEP, WORK, SCHOOL

MAN! i fell so tired and sleepy na yet i cant even close my eyes for a while because i really have to finish this nah(thesis).. im happy and excited.. but i feel so tired nah .. konti nlng toh .. Wednesday will be the judgement day(Oral Defense) after that im a free man again. after this im planning to get a long vacation( in my mind) hahah .. im planning to go out(mall and eat a lot and drink alot of pineapple and watch movies! and maybe get my hair rebonded) i have a lot of plans i just hope i have the finances to back it up.. haahahah o well time and time again i have experienced God's provision and favor so im not worrid at all.. i know at the end of this i will be victorious... :D

To our Adviser Ms. Everly Chua i thank you for parting us with your knowledge, for handling us the best way you can and making us feel that we are secured in your guidance.

To my thesis mates i thank you for the support understanding and consideration that you have graced me with, i thank you all! My prayer that the lesson we learn in our project will not just stay as a lesson but will also affect our lives in a manner that pleases the Lord. i know deep in my heart that you too feel that sometimes we sacrifices God just for our lives to be ore convenient.

To my WILDfire family i thank you for your prayers, encouragement and love, in your simple ways i find myself having strength and power to go on and move forward.

To everyone, God bless us all!To God be the Glory!:D

Fight to the FINISH

its hard to fight if your just weak. its run to run when you get so tired easily. this past days i found myself:

1. affected

2. jealous

3. struggling

4. confused

i though i had it all figured out, i though i was sure already then suddenly she came back, back inside my heart. she suddenly broke through the closed doors of my heart. suddenly my eyes turned at her and every time i am with her i feel so weak, i wanna hug her, hold her hand and tell her "i think your the one" yet i cant because i know this is not the perfect time to be in a relationship. every time i hear her say things about me my heart beats faster and faster, i wanna explode in joy and shout "if you only knew how i feel right now!" but i cant.

right now i see her especially when i close my eyes, just the way she cares for me makes me weak and more in love with her. i don't know if we are meant to be, but as of now "you make me weak".

you looked great today. you were so beautiful, so beautiful that i almost kissed you!...

this is makes me wanna explode, i blogged this just so i could have an outlet because its hard to keep this for myself.. man!

i pray that the end of our lives we both find our "one".

Expressions

Right now I feel something that has been hiding for quite a while, I feel attraction. I miss her which is really odd I thought that it was finished between us, but before I knew it I find myself getting affected when she tell stories of guys getting attracted at her. I'm still confused i thought I was sure about my feelings, but now I find myself being wrong. Truly nothing is certain in this world. Now I put my trust in God that in His time I will find the one, my one.

UNFATHOMABLE LOVE

Truly God's LOVE is unfathomable, everyday I am blessed to experience grace. I'm merely an ordinary person holding on to and EXTRAORDINARY LOVE that my GOD gifted me. I am not just the only one invited in this eternal love, everyone who is willing to take that step of faith is welcome. Surrender is the way, the only way to experience God, to truly experience the the unfailing, everliving, everlasting love that God has. I am not perfect, as a matter of fact just like Paul, i consider myself a the worst sinner(Public Sinner #1) yet the promise of love states that "even if your sins are like scarlet, I will wash you as white as snow". right now I wanna cry because I just experienced again that my righteousness has no value, because my righteousness is a lie(I was never once and never will be a righteous) I only borrow JESUS CHRIST's righteousness. Through him I find forgiveness, peace and trust.